Thanks to those of you who have stuck with me through these long historical posts. It's been fun remembering. I guess that's the purpose of a blog, to remember and document moments of our lives. Here's part 3 of the saga of our childbirth stories, our miracle #3... (it's a long one!)

I found out right before Christmas that I was pregnant. What a wonderful Christmas present! Kyler was just over a year old, Lexi was 7 months old, and it was such a HUGE surprise! Because we had been through so much to get Kyler and Lexi we thought we would have to go through the same things to ever have another baby. I had been hungering for another baby, and felt guilty because I was so grateful to have these two little angels. But it was such a huge sense of relief to me to be pregnant again and I knew, I just knew, he was a boy.
He was due the first of August, but one morning the end of May I woke up and felt a big warm gush as I lay in bed. My first thought was hoping my water hadn't broken. And then I sat up and saw it was blood. Panic!
We were so blessed through all of this. After the initial shock I felt peace. We rushed to the hospital an hour away and I could still feel him moving as we drove. They were waiting for me at the emergency doors and hurried me back in a wheelchair where I had an ultrasound. I was having contractions every minute and was already dilated to a 5. They were going to try and stop labor until they saw the placenta in the ultrasound and called for an emergency C-section. It all happened so fast. They gave us a minute alone and Dave, his dad, and brother Brett gave me a blessing. Then reality set in and I started to cry. It was too early for this baby to be born and I hoped he would be alright.
The anesthesiologist tried twice to get the spinal in and it wouldn't go in. The doctor rushed in and said there was no time to keep trying and told him to put me all the way out quickly. But I'm so thankful he tried one more time and got it in so I could be awake for it. The doctor started cutting before Dave had time to suit up. Dave came rushing in and saw them pull Porter out. We heard him give a little cry, they weighed him and told us he was 3 lbs 12 oz. We were so glad he was that big for being so early. Then they rushed him away to the ICU without me being able to see him.
After they sewed me back up and had me in a room for an hour or so they wheeled my big bed in to the ICU so I could see Porter. It broke my heart. I was so glad to

see him, but it is hard to see your baby so tiny and attached to so many machines. They told us not to touch him because his nerves weren't developed yet and it would feel like sandpaper to him. But we could hold his tiny hands.
He did amazingly well and grew well. The very next day he was off the ventilators, which I think is amazing - I've heard that if your body knows that labor is coming that some hormone helps the baby's lungs develop faster. I had been having labor pains for a couple days but thought they must be Braxton-Hicks contractions. But I feel like my body was helping him get ready to face life early, so his lungs did really well for being only 30 weeks.
I left the hospital after 3 days and what a heartbreaking thing to have to leave him there. I stayed with my parents so I was close to the hospital and I went up several times a day to sit with him. I couldn't hold him every day at first, but would sit and talk to him and hold his little hand.
I was able to hold him for the first time when he was 4 days old. It scared me to death with all the wires and tubes everywhere.

I didn't want to hurt him. But the nurse was insistant that it would be good for him and for me. And it was wonderful to finally be able to hold my baby. He was so tiny and so light, but it helped my heart to be able to hold him. (Can you see him in the mass of tubes and wires?)

He didn't have the sucking reflex for a few more weeks so he was fed through a tube in his nose. He also had a heart murmur caused by a small hole in his heart, which is common for preemies. It healed on it's own after a couple months.
Lots of babies came and went during Porter's stay in the ICU. When a 6-7 lb. baby was brought in they looked so BIG to me! I was used to looking at Porter and those extra couple pounds make a big difference! (But now when I see a newborn baby that is 6 or 7 lbs. they look so TINY!) Porter around 4 lbs:


After a few weeks they started bottle feeding with this tiny little bottle that seemed so huge next to him. He would open his eyes and look at Dave and I when we were there. But mostly he slept. I got to give him a bath one morning and he was so tiny and slippery. But the nurse was right there and helped me, and Dave got it on video. That was one of my favorite memories of him being in the ICU, being able to be a mother and do something for him.

After 5 weeks he was ready to come home. He was 5 lbs. 5 oz. and still hooked up to oxygen and several monitors. It was a nerve racking night the first night because his alarms kept going off.
A few days later we took him to Primary Children's in Salt Lake so they could check his heart, etc. and the doctor there said there was no need for him to be on oxygen and have all those monitors. It was scary to take them off because I trusted them to tell me he was ok. But we did, and it was so wonderful to be able to hold him, just him, and not all the wires. He did amazingly well after that and grew just like a normal newborn.
My three beautiful miracles a couple weeks

after Porter came home from the hospital. 3 babies under 2 years old. (Kyler didn't turn two for another month.) We had 3 babies in diapers and 3 babies in cribs. We were so glad to have them all home together.
Now Porter is a rowdy rambunctious 3 year old. We're so thankful for him! He has such a fun personality and keeps us laughing. He's always running, I wish I had some of his never-ending energy!

What happened that morning was a placental abruption. 50% of the time this happens the placenta detaches where the baby is getting it's oxygen and nutrients and the baby dies within a couple minutes. We were so lucky this didn't happen with Porter. But the placenta came floating out as soon as they cut my uterus open. The doctors later said we only had moments to spare. I'm so thankful for them and their life-saving and inspired decisions. Porter wouldn't be with us today if they had waited a few more minutes. My doctor went out of town the next day but called me at the hospital to see how things were going. He said he knew Someone was really watching out for our little boy. This makes me cry.

We feel that way too, that Heavenly Father's guidance and care were with us from the first moments we woke up that morning and through everything that happened over the next few days and weeks. We know Porter is supposed to be here with us and that he has a special purpose. I'm so thankful he's here with us! He adds so much to our family.
Porter's Blessing Day:

Each and every child is such a miracle. I've learned that through our experiences and know that each life is such a treasure. Our Father in Heaven is watching over each of us and is aware of our needs and what is happening in each moment of our lives. I'm thankful to know this and for His loving care for each of His children everywhere.